MAYA VANDER SERIES

Right now, Vander says she's giving herself permission to 'cry a lot' and is planning a funeral. 'I'm sure it's going to be tough for me to watch,' she says.

The entirety of Selling Sunset season 5 (of which, a release date has yet to be confirmed) was filmed while she was pregnant, and will include scenes from her baby shower.

MAYA VANDER SERIES

You will always be in our heart baby Mason 💔💙' (Related: This Mom Decided to Donate All of Her Breast Milk After a Traumatic Stillbirth)Īs she alluded to in the caption, Vander says she realized that her role on the popular Netflix series will mean she's regularly reminded of her pregnancy - and loss. 'Given I share my pregnancies in the show I knew I'll have to post about this and avoid the ' when is your due date ' question. 'What was a regular weekly checkup turned into a nightmare that I never imagine will happen to me,' she writes in her caption. On Friday, Vander took to Instagram to share the news of the 'hardest day of life.' Next to a photo of a memory box that she took home from the hospital, Vander explains to her followers why they would not be seeing a birth announcement for Mason. At this point, the couple is still awaiting autopsy results to hopefully learn more about the cause of Mason's death. Her husband was unable to accompany her during the delivery since he had COVID-19 at the time. 'You hear about stillbirths but you just never think they're going to affect you,' she says. While she finally caught her breath, she says she realized how blindsided she felt. 'I almost became very calm and occupied because I knew that I needed to get it done,' she says. Three hours later, Vander went to the hospital to deliver Mason, which she knew would be a stillbirth. (Related: 'Selling Sunset' Star Christine Quinn Revealed She Almost Died During Labor) 'I had a bad feeling.' Shortly after, she had an ultrasound that confirmed the baby, whom she named Mason, had died. 'I knew there and then when she couldn't find it - I freaked out,' she recounts. We'll see.But when Vander's gynecologist checked for a heartbeat, there was none. 'I think part of healing is getting pregnant again. 'I have my moments, that's part of grief, and just take this opportunity to raise voice for stillbirth and pregnancy loss,' she said. In May 2022, the reality star shared at the Selling Sunset reunion show that as a part of her grieving process, she was hoping to get pregnant again. You will always be in our heart baby Mason 💔💙.' Given I share my pregnancies in the show I knew I’ll have to post about this and avoid the 'when is your due date' question. What was a regular weekly checkup turned into a nightmare that I never imagine will happen to me.

Instead of delivering a baby, I get to go home with a memory box… I do not wish this on anyone. I always heard of it but never imagined I’ll be part of the statistics. Posting a photo of an empty hospital bassinet on Instagram, Vander wrote, 'Yesterday was the hardest day of my life. In December 2021, Vander shared the sad news that she had a stillbirth with her third child, Mason, at 38 weeks. A post shared by Maya Vander (SELLING SUNSET) addition to Aiden, who was born in April 2019, Vander shares a 2-year-old daughter, Elle, whom she welcomed in May 2020 with her partner, Dave.

Maya vander